The Lunatic, The Lover, and The Poet

So, good news: I got the job! It's also why I haven't been posting since last week. I'm overwhelmed.

Everyone, or almost everyone I know has been asking me, "How was your first day(s)?" And since you asked, I'll tell you what I've told everyone else so far... and possibly a little more.

My usual answer: It's going well so far. I'm just overwhelmed because of the amount of information coming at me all at once without a chance for me to get myself organized first. The kids are good, I've taught one of the courses before, and everyone is super supportive. It may be a little hectic right now but it will get better soon.

Most of that last part was more to convince me of that fact than anything. Have I mentioned that I'm overwhelmed?

I feel like I have so much information in my head that it's coming out my ears. The more I take in, the more I lose. I'm not organized and for someone like me who usually has everything colour coded, alphabetized and in its place, being unorganized is likely to make me go crazy. Quickly.

My mom says I'm a "C" Personality. Basically someone who is analytical, conscientious (funny.. that was always the standard adjective used to describe me on report cards in high school), careful and precise, uber organized and a perfectionist. She's probably right.. it sounds like me with my colour coded markers and daily planner that never leaves my side. So imagine this: you take one of those people, who's sanity and ability to work well depends on their organization and plunk them down in the middle of a chaotic situation without much warning and ask them to organize everything. You would have picked the best person for the job but that poor little C personality is going to have an anxiety attack. That's where I am right now, fighting an anxiety attack.

Don't get me wrong. I'm glad I have the job (I think. Or at least I will be on pay day..), and I know (logically) that it will all be ok, and probably pretty soon, but my goodness, is it summer yet?